The book of Exodus is all about God’s power. It’s a book about redemption and God’s faithfulness to fulfill His covenant promises and redeem His people.
It’s a perfect book for me to study and teach as I have wrestled in a season of doubt, discouragement, and disillusionment. I thought this was over. I thought I was done. Until the LORD whispered to me, “Daughter, if you are struggling with unbelief, with doubt, with disillusionment, you don’t quit, you come closer. If you don’t know my power, come here to me and I’ll show you.”
That’s just what He’s been doing the past few weeks.
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Watching so many around me run toward or slowly drift, confess or get caught was starting to scare me. None of this was my own relationship with Christ, but it started to affect my relationship with Christ. I give my life to helping others find joy and fulfillment and satisfaction in Jesus, He is the way, the truth, the life. And so when I watched so many around me pursue a different path, when I watched my own professor who taught me so much live a life of hypocrisy, it filled me with doubt and I started to ask:
Is this all real?
Is this all true?
Is this all worth it?
I didn’t realize until I was reading my 10month old a bible story that what I was doubting was: GOD’S POWER. Somewhere along the way, watching believers choose to go their own way, choose sin, live in hypocrisy, led me to a faith crisis.
Does God really have the power to break chains? To set people free? To satisfy? To redeem? To deliver? To renew? To change? To raise the dead?
Is his power real? Is it true?
And I stopped believing it. I stopped believing in God’s power and I started down a path of disillusionment. I started to see myself take subtle steps toward believing, “If this is not true, than what am I doing? Why am I pouring my life out, getting up in the wee hours of the morning to study, meeting with women, leaving my cute baby? I could be watching Netflix, shopping, drinking wine, moving to Italy, living for me and mine. And I started to struggle with wanting to compromise myself, pursuing the false gods of comfort and selfishness.
And I realized, I have to quit. I can’t teach and lead a bible study about God if I don’t believe His power. If I don’t believe this is all real and God can really change people, then I can’t stand up here.
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